The Day When Tears Begin to Drops Again..

Last night was not like the other night I normally had. It first begins with laugh and happy thought. Then it turns out to be different when I accidentally opened a topic that can actually answer my questions. Raya is near but I’m still not in the mood to celebrate it. Azeera also have the same thing in mind. She said that maybe we just getting older. Is the Raya mood only for kids?? I wish I could kids again. Having all the funs without worrying about anything, just hoping that the money we collected will be more than others. But then I will hope that my age will quickly increase. Haha.. is this really life we talking about? I’m not sure myself either. Please help me find the answer.

Again, I want to state that I am totally upset with myself rite now. I need someone to hear my whisper. But all my friends already at their beloved kampong and probably some of them are on their way right now. Well, that is why Arma come out with the blogging idea. So that we can share our story no matter where we are. Thanks ma, and I’m sorry too. I’ll try to be more active writing on this blog. Sometimes, the timing is just not rite. Please forgive me.

I don’t know how to express myself anyway. I am really really stressed out with things around here. You may not understand what I’m trying write here. Seriously, my ‘EMO’ is in the maximum level right now. Why is this should be happening? It shouldn’t be happening. We should have a happy moment together. Friends that could not be trusted. Who should I trust anyway?? Aarghh.. malas la nak tulis dah.. off..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!

SEMOGA BULAN YANG BERMAKNA INI TELAH DIPENUHI DGN IBADAH.

DAN SEMOGA BULAN YANG TIBA INI AKAN DIMANFAATKAN SEPENUHNYA.

BAIK DENGAN WANG ATAUPUN ZIARAH MENZIARAHI!

drunk.

i'm tired of being alone.~ but that doesnt mean i need someone.
i'm sure.

Jannah punya pasal.

ok. firstly, i got tagged. and it's my first tag ever i think. and i was going through jannah's 8 fact (god knows if they're true.haha)thinking like if they tag me, and i tag another person, and that other person decided to tag me back, that would be redicolously tiring kan? well i decided to do something smart at the end of this "tag" u call. :)

and...

it's been a long time since my last entry, work had gotten the worse out of me. haha. once i had this funny feeling at my eye, it was kind of painful, and it was probably because of my lack of sleep. but that was a few months ago. now i'm in the middle of my final project month. samalah mcm jannah. and i am elected leader for my group. waduh, only i know the agony. haha. but my teammates are okay, they're doing their jobs i would have to say.

Pass weeks have been ok. tiring though. i've got a favourite subject, design studies, which also the most hated subject due to workload, its complicated. i have my least favourite subject, which comes to a surprise, that is life drawing. maybe its just because of the long tiring hours of staring at a lifeless object, ops i would like to correct the sentence. long tiring hours staring at multiple lifeless objects.

um, what else. today, i waved at the korean girl in my class, AND smiled too, AND she waved AND smiled back at me AND said "hi". lets just say, they're just too cute for me to resist. i need help. haha. NAAH!~
next would be communication studies,as complicated it may sound, its just English. haha. Comm studies would be the least stress class. oh and there's also a "girl" in that class. she's indonesian, wears tudung, and what else...oh yah..she has BRACES. haha (ejat i know ur feeling this one right now.haha. ezat keep's a deep secret of mine, a secret i discovered about myself, then told him lepas semayang terawih at USJ4).

and i have gotten praises, i think.

# "arma you know what, you can be t-shirt designer" - this ones from a classmate of mine. he was looking at my random sketches.
# "I think you can come up with an interesting design, i dont think u have a problem" - this one was from my lecturer. what can i say, i'll try my best. ahaha.

well i guess this are the best compliments that i've received lately. so.. YEAH! to these two.

okay i'm done now. spelling errors, heck. and i think my blogging technics sudah decrease. oh macam mane ni... haha. nvrmind i guess i could work on it when i have time.

# The Rules:
1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’ve tagged, and to read your blog.

- i get emo lately, but its only when i ride busses. i guess its just the whole metaphor for going through life, i get these visuals for a video clip. staring outside a window from inside a moving box.oh i get emo in cars too.

- i like busses at night. yup. ejat knows this. its maybe because of the bright light inside the bus. i like watching it go by. :)

- i want to go on a trip with the guys sama the girls. i keep imagining, again, clips of us dressed up, going out at night, dkat harbour probably, it's like cold sikit cause some were wearing scarfs, and taking pictures with city lights as background, or like we are all walking in the city. i keep thinking Australia or Singapore. or the streets like in the snowpatrol video clip, hands open. i think it's at paris or something. i know. gila. but i really wish it could happen. oh and the soundtrack for it would be either, The subways - With You, or.. Ingrid Michaelson - Keep Breathing.

- i want to start a magazine. design+lifestyle magazine. it's just gona be a hobby thing with friends, low cost production thing. but yes u use money to get a copy of it, i dont care. haha. alah it's just gona be a few ringgit je. so i need authors. come friends. maybe jannah would help *wink2* help la.

- i am not sure of myself. at some point i can be this, and the next minute i could be that. i could like something now, and then shift to another thing later. BUT i am not like JANNAH, although i change interests, somehow i'll comeback to my old likings. haha. warning this just applies on objects. non-living things. so dont go around making asumptions.

- i am willing to wait. just that.

- i am blurr. i dont catch signals, i am on a different tuning. thats why i have extra antennas like ezat or yeti(nazir). they kinda pick up the signals when i start explaining.

- i stay true to friends. it'll be a major loss losing them. both guys and girls.

SO IT HAS COME TO THE PART WHERE I TAG.
I TAG OTHER BLOGGERS OF THIS BLOG.
LET ME LIST THEM DOWN:

# MR.COMMITMENT GUY
# EJAT
# YETI
# GERMAN AMBER (which i doubt would be posting)

YOU INACTIVE BLOGGERS BETTER READ THIS.
YOU'VE BEEN TAGGED.
U HEAR ME!
T-A-G-G-E-D !
NOW SIT UR ASSES DOWN AND START TYPING!

told you i did something smart.

confession #2

selamat berpuasa.

so here i confess

'hello,im iqbal. i'm 17. yes im the youngest among my friends. thats why i always get bullied..? maybe,but i am the youngest. full stop. i've been sober for a looong time. i miss my bully-ers. especially the 1 who FORCE to do this. but i get his point. yes,i miss all of my head banging-mofos-crazy olde friends. i DO text them. well,not often but i still DO. when i think of them i'll go laughing to myself. yes. some people DO think im crazy,so what? i feel better thinking n laughing about the good old days rather than sitting down,thinking about problems coming n might 1 day go crazy instead. live life to the fullest. I live MY life to the fullest. thats why im addicted to my friends. well, SO BE IT. AN ADDICT. THATS WHAT I AM. I AM A FRIEND ADDICT."

Ex-Casanova
16 Sept 2007,
Friend Addicts Convention, UEP Subang Jaya, Malaysia.