Friday, October 30, 2009

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Uncertainty in life, Absolute certainty in death.

What was written on my mothers womb?
What was written for me?
What is my career?
Who are my friends?
Who will turn their backs?
Who will hurt me?
Who will stay with me?
Who is the spouse?
Am i rich?
Am i poor?
Will i succeed?
When is success?
When will i die?
How will i die?
Why did i die?

I will die.

I think it's beautiful how this is crafted.
the only certain thing about life is that we will die.
This, everyone is assured of.
Choose to ignore it, or choose to embrace it.
Death is still there for you.
The ultimate commitment.
I am learning to lower my gaze.
Hard as it is.
Damn hard.
Definitely worth a try.
Before death comes visiting.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Kau yang punya

di kedai kopi
tiada yg lagi tenang dari ini
kerna sentiasa ku cari cari
sebab keraguan diriku menari nari

dan kini aku hindari segala apa yg tak disenangi
berhenti berlari
lihat kanan dan kiri
sblum ku dilanggar nnti
lagi susah kerna ku tk ckup ilmu di dada
di dunia asyik berdansa
di tempat gelap
memanglah sedap
tp apa yg tetap
dosa tetap dosa tk kira umur kau brapa

minum sentiasa di tangan
tuang lagi ku habiskan
perempuan di kiri kanan
dtg lagi ku habiskan
duit hanya permainan
beri lagi ku habiskan
semua peluang ku habiskan
skarang nyawa nyawa ikan

badan berat tp kurus
masih sesat di jalan lurus
komunikasi terputus
3 talian hayat masing2 sudah pupus

skarang aku seorang
kopi di tangan
minda ku berperang
walau tenang di luaran
jika kau perasan
tangan kanan pegang kopi
tangan kiri sorok tepi kaki
menggigil pegang janji

Jangan kau bimbang sayang
di mana ku berada
dengan siapa ku bersama
jangan bimbang
ku tetap
kau yang punya

Friday, October 9, 2009

Not many of us don't know what we recite. So now you know.

Surah 1
The Fatiha

Bismillaah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem
Al hamdu lillaahi rabbil 'alameen
Ar-Rahman ar-Raheem Maaliki yaumid Deen
Iyyaaka na'abudu wa iyyaaka nasta'een
Ihdinas siraatal mustaqeem
Siraatal ladheena an 'amta' alaihim
Ghairil maghduubi' alaihim waladaaleen

In the name of God, the infinitely Compassionate and Merciful.
Praise be to God, Lord of all the worlds.
The Compassionate, the Merciful. Ruler on the Day of Reckoning.
You alone do we worship, and You alone do we ask for help.
Guide us on the straight path,
the path of those who have received your grace;
not the path of those who have brought down wrath, nor of those who wander astray.

Translated by Kabir Helminski

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Lela has the freakin urge to say:

Arma is the single most sexiest most manliest most coolest man blogger on this blog.

The others are all boys.

Pathetic little boys.

Not Peter Pans After All

But more like Pan Pizzas.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

The Wake Up.

3:32 A.M. Seeing double visions just as he opens his eyes to the silent morning. Time seems to hold still. He still needs to perform Isyak before directing his sorry tired self back to sleep, and to think a few months back, he would'nt even blink in his sleep, just for the thought of missing the prayer time.

Just for the thought. Thoughts.


He finishes his duties for the day, and prepares himself for bed. Making the bed proper while staring into infinity.
Infinity is tomorrow.
tomorrow is today.
today is .. crap.

merepek sahaja awak.
4:10 A.M.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Not Peter Pans After All

Is it the thought or the circumstance that drives us, swiveling us in ways that we could have never have guessed?
That, i honestly, do not know.

But what i do know is that something is happening to us, changing the way we see things, deepening our sense of perception, increasing the flavor of life. Apparently, from our conversations, it seems that there are different ways of experiencing this. we may find ourselves morphing into a warped version of our fathers, we may find ourselves too busy, feeling tired of thinking, or just plain shocked of all these new things we are seeing. Were we blind before when we didn't see all these? Were we not intelligent enough to be realistic?

But i'll tell you what i'll do. i'm gonna stop worrying. and start doing. just for the fun of it. Que sera sera. Carpe diem. This is my opinion, my voice. Tell me if you think this is stupid. i welcome any thoughts telling me i'm being stupid and childish. All because i wish i was. Is it true? Are we all, in one way or another, (for lack of a better word), mellow now?

and yeah, this is my first post. for all of you wondering, this is me.