bateren renkon tomato max

when there's a parting, then there's a next meet.

it's my 21st day of being the lone ranger. :)
going through life at the same place, the same house, the same streets, the same restauraunts..but in a different way.
its kind of like living 21 days of new life. i've met people never imagined of meeting. like mr. ujang who taught me everything about t-shirts. i met wai yen, at usj 12 court, and turns out it was his last day in malaysia. he was setting off to australia the next day. i met dad's old housemate in uni, who clearly had forgotten my dad, and he wasnt hiding it, "sapa aa? tk ingtlah." after that statement, he asked directions and walked away.

funny how things went around here at home.
i drove. thats another thing. i drove everywhere. and surprisingly i drove to, nostalgic places. coincidently.
alamanda, kota damansara, usj 12 court, and school.
enough to retap all memories locked and stored in my head.

well last night, was a meet to be remembered. nothing fancy but we were back, not all of us, just a small portion. but that small portion was enough. we talked, laughed, pondered old memories, and shared new ones.
for the first time, i wasn't jealous of the experience they went through. i wasn't putting on a deaf ear. i wasn't the fake listener. for once, i wasn't selfish. it was fun again to hear stories from a friend, to hear their voices of laughter.

but this time, this meet, we were all different, we were all grown up. i kno its a bold statement to say, that we have all grown up. but i think we really are. being able to live life without old friends but still keeping them for emegencies. some had new things added in their lives. some were just the same. :)

before last night's meet. before last night. i had my hopes died down. plans to meet were just, plans. no hopes, just plans. it's because it usually doesnt end up how i hoped it would. so having a plan, and not hoping it would turn out right was a habit i had developed.
um. i hate partings. i hate leaving stuff im used too.
but..
i realised with partings, comes new meets.
:) so its ok.

hmm..i'm gonna write another post tomorrow. not sure if it's gonna be a long one or a short one. but there's gonna be a post for sure.

i'm just typing stuff that went through my mind a while ago. while watching "sexy voice and robo", surprising how fictionous stories could make us realise things. small details that we had let pass by.
i guess im gonna let this post hang here.
i have no plans to end it the right way.

:) bateren renkon tomato maaa----aaaaaxxxxx!!!!!!!!!